The question was posed at our first child's baby shower how many children will you have? I told everyone five (of course). We would probably have three biologically and adopt two. In my mind that is exactly what had Dustin and I wanted so that must be what we would get. It wasn't asking for too much we felt.
Five children later: two in our home, three in God's I guess I should have been more clear. God, I want five children in OUR HOME! So on we went to our NEW PLAN!
Our NEW Plan:
See several specialist. Consult every resource and try to get my T1D in check so I can deliver a healthy baby......months and a few ER visits later. Ya, so that is isn't going to happen.
Our NEW (and IMPROVED) Plan:
Begin our adoption journey earlier than expected. Reasonable right? I mean it would be horribly selfish of us to want more children biologically only to have them or me be physically harmed by my T1D.
This plan is super socially conscious don't you think? Everyone wins. We get another baby and another baby a home.
Plan working marvelously. (thinking to self: it's about time!) Friends and family surround themselves around us and help us with adoption fundraiser after adoption fundraiser. However, about 6 months in it started to become clear if we wanted to adopt within the next year we weren't going to be able to pay the $30,000+ price tag a traditional adoption would cost.
Maybe, local adoptions? Maybe, foster to adopt? We loved the idea before we lost Claudette but now the idea of having a baby in our home only to potentially be taken away again scared us to death.
Whatever the answers were it was becoming clear we would have time to worry about it, heck we couldn't even find time to schedule the pre-homestudy interview.
Well that plan is starting to unravel, just like my brain about now...
Despite our best efforts to the latter, God has decided that we might be having another biological child. YES that is right, I might be pregnant. Don't PASS OUT! I already almost did.
This is definitely not our plan and I am not sure it is even positive yet. But I have realized in the last several days of growing three thousand new grey hairs, that is never was OUR plan, it has always been GOD'S! So let's just sit back and enjoy the ride...ya, ya I know that is NOT going to happen!
...oh and don't worry, I will keep you posted on the results.
The above was posted last week. We wanted to make sure it the results were accurate and here they are:
To be frank we as disappointed as we are relieved. Onward and upward and like my smart little Henry told me yesterday, "We are going to have a baby someday, mommy!"
Hope he is right...HOPE being the key word.